I am scared to grow up?

So you're scared of being financially unstable then or having that American Dream? I feel the same way sometimes. Sometimes I feel like school and all of the bullshitt APs I'm taking are worthless because I just don't give a shitt about them and I don't remember a thing after the test and I'm taking it just to get into college and make good money. Its really unfortunate that your mom sort of just left you stranded. First off, consider taking a year (or two) off after high school to really think things through about what you want to do...don't go to college right away. Get involved in the acting business and really put yourself out there. Test yourself to see if you can really take on the challenges of being an actor. Who knows what time will do; you may become sick of acting and pursue another career. By all means, don't start a college major with a certain occupation in mind that you will regret later. Try a few things out and find yourself. If you still want to go on with acting as a career go to an acting school. You can really become that famous actor or you can teach, produce, direct, whatever? If you decide not to become an actor for a job then make sure you do it part time with people who love it just as much as you do. In Los Angeles, I go to an extremely talented playhouse (its very small, but full of TALENT and many new plays are brought to this play house first) that has actors that make little or no money. In other words, maybe you can become a lawyer that specializes in acting laws and do some acting on the side. For example, my close cousin was always obsessed with fashion and had wanted to become a fashion designer ever since...she ended up doing fashion law and just ped the bar recently. One important thing to remember is to take a year off and figure things out. You can't go straight into college being this anxious and not knowing what you're going to do!